undergrowth

Sometimes I don even know why I bother and try so hard for something which I know can never go back to be the same again. Really. Stupid. Of. Me.

new blog

Hey Everyone who has been faithfully coming to visit my journal.. just want to inform you that I have gotta a new and REAL blog. its at..

http://under-growth.blogspot.com

Pls remember to change ur links to the new url. Thnks again!

PS - must remember to leave a note in my guestbk, k?

Today was any easy day.
But an extremely booring one.
Was supposed to go to Heeren and Chinatown with Chan, Bern and Vanessa after school.
But didnt.

Had only two lessons in the morning.
MT and SS.
Had MT test today.
I have a feeling that Im going to pass.

Poor Chan.
She's lost her voice this morning.
But she was sooo damned funny.
Trying to speak but nothing came out.
Then she started to hand sign a little.
Damm funny.

Dont know what overcame me.
Went to buy the August issue of herworld.
Cost me 5 bucks.
U may think it's thick and worth it.
In fact, only 1/4 of it are articles,
the rest of advertistments.
And I really wonder why career women buy magazines like this.
Probably they have too much money to spare.
Then give mi some!

I want a proper blog!
But am too lazy.
Besides, I know nuts about HTML.
Anyone out there who thinks that they hv too much time and is seekin for something to do?
Do a blog for me, PRETTY PLS.

Damned.
Its raining.
Got to go and close all the windows b4 my whole hse floods.
That nearly happend once.
My dad forgot to close the windows when he went out.
Then mom scolded him.
I dont want mom to scold me.
See ya,
Rosie

Hate to write titles.

Got up early today in the morning to take my bath.
It was very refreshing.
Probably I should take baths in the morning more often.
Kinda helps to lift my spirits.

Eating Beef Udon now.
Cooked it myself. *Smiles*
It comes in a packet like maggie mee.
But very salty.
Guess I didnt add enough water.
After the UDON, i'll settle for one bottle of blackcurrent vodak.
Mom went NTUC yesterday and bought a few bottles home.
SO far only alcohol can smoothe my mind and body.
Skipped alot of meals.
Not because I am on a strict diet, but because my appetite has not been well.
Am going through ALOT of shit lately.
Any listening ear out there?

*Swoon

OOOooohhh...
I am going to swoon soon.
Just watchd a half dl-ed mirror pv & le ciel pv and he is just sooo handsome.
His hair rocks.
His body rocks.
His face rocks.
Every inch of him rocks.
Chan, I tink I am going to join ur fan club soon.

Went for 1st Sat yesterday.
Got to say, I was expecting more, espically from her.
The P&W was very dry. (If you know wat I mean)

Shaun was back last Wednesday.
I dont know when I will meet up with him.
Hope not so soon. NOt exactly ready to see him.
Not in the state I am in now.

More tests coming up this week.
Monday - Geography
Tuesday - Chinese
BUt there's a half day on Tuesday so it isnt that hard to live by the week.

See ya,
Rosie

Running...

Spent quite some time doing my FnN write up yesterday and I ended sleeping quite late. My mind's too blurry to remember the exact time.

Saturday's approaching and after months of waiting, it's the starting of 1st and 3rd saturday healing masses again. Heh. I would want to go to see *her singing. Mmm.. have been thinking abt the decision that I have made quite a while ago... quite troubled. Will not go about it. Simply too boring.

Sitting down here now facing you-know-who. I have to admit, she is pretty cute for a girl. Cute as in female cute, ya know what I mean? She looks so adorable (sorry, running out of vocabs here) when she is concentrating. I think she is doing her IPW now.. heh.

Continue when I return home..

Probably the sorriest day of my life

Now I am currently in the school com's numerous labs. And I seriously thank God for the ability to type fast cos I have quite a bit to say and I have only a few minutes left before I got to get my butts out.

I burnt a CD for Chan yesterday. She was quite happy, I think. She was beaming and smiling (I do quite like to see ppl smile, espically her) Burnt erm.. Gackt mpegs for her. Consist of Gackt's PV - Mizerable and other really funnie clips. Yeapz.

Shaun *Quek should be flying back by today. I should be glad cos I havnt seen him for the last 5 months or so? Heh. She was my ex-balstierian friend. Currently the same age as me. Flew to god-knows-where to study cos he was fed up of Singapore. Heh, quite cute lar.

Gtg, EWT is chasing me out now..

Reached home from school not long ago after the tedious five items test. Here I am sitting in front of the com with a cup of HL milk on my right and skin repair cream in front of me. The cream is just moisturer.. heh. I know that information wasnt needed but I decided to add it in anyway. :) Today's PFT was totally sucky. I barely passed all four items except one -Inclined Pull-ups. I couldnt even do a single one. *drops head into hands* That is super disappointing cos I did at least 3 last yr. But my standing board jump improved.. alot. Heh. Anyway, I hope that we dont have to re-take the whole damned thing if we happen to fail any one. *Clasp hands and pray*

During E-maths in the morning, something totally shitty happened and I was sooo fucked up. I will not go into details cos I think its embrassing but I just want to thank Amanda for the support that she say given me (She was ALWAYS beside me all the time) and to say sorrie to Chan for 'not paying attention' to her. *Sorry, Lao Gong! Hope ya forgive me/*

Gtg and do my FnN... sighz.
Rosie

ps - really glad that this day is coing to an end.

Problems, anyone?

I know I am supposed to study.
I know I am supposed to do my homework.
I know I am supposed to stop using the com. so much.
I know I am supposed to eat properly and not skip and meals.
I know I am supposed to not eat sweet stuffs.
I know I am suppsoed to come home early intead of going out all the time.
I know I am suppsoed to eat my medications on time.
I know, I know, I know all of these.

THEN why am I NOT doing it?

I am super pissed at myself. I watch the hours pass just before my eyes and I am not doing anythin but just idling, like a couch potato in front of the tv. He knows that too much tv is not good but he still does it anyway. Yupz, thats what I am doing all these while. Staring as the days go by in a blur. And the worst part? I KNOW all of these. I am sensible and mature enough to understand but due to laziness, i just rot. rot. rot. (Just trying to emphsise on the word)

Sometimes I take the bus 21 from Novena Square back home after school and 21 stops at the bus stop in front of ITE Balstier. And usually, there are groups of malay males-wannabe-linkins, chinese boys that acts like street ah bengs with their white shirt tucked out and their pants drooping so low that you could almost see their privates and girls with multiple piercings on their nose, earlobes and God-knows-where-else-that's-hidden would come into the bus and I tell myself: Never, NEVER in my entire life will I land myself in their state. *I am not sayin that all ITE students are like that but so far, all the ones that I have met on the bus and on the streets are exactly like what I have just described.* But I can see myself in their shoes, doing what they are doing when I come out from sec school. Yes, I am such a big failure. Now you know why I have been feeling depressed for my entire life. Obviously, I have more worries and problems but whose life is perfect? Not mine, thats a for sure.

Oh wellz, BBT lent me her collection of 'The Last Vampire'. Just read finish book one before going to take my long awaited bath since I returned home in the afternoon. Anyway, vampires does appeal to me (cos' they are totally mysteries) but the book doesnt. Sorry to say Gloria, the books too plain for my taste - almost booring. But nevertheless, I find it quite interesting. And the language is too simple and the words are like sooo big. I felt as if I was reading my nursery rhymes booklet when I was younger. Heh.

Had E-maths and SS test today. SS was a breeze because I had the help of my partner, Amanda Koh. Seemed like she had a internal resouce that provided her with all the answers. But E-maths totally suxed. I looked at the questions when Mrs Kunna handed it out and I just stared blankly at it. U know why. I didnt know how to do a single question. I didnt study for my subjects again. Notice the word - again?

Depressed,
Rosie

confused.

Just got back from mass at St Mikes. As usual, St Mary's on duty. Wasnt excatly listenin attentively to the Gospel but when fr.Angel said the last sentence before ending his homily, my mind suddenly focused and I heard -'It doesnt matter how small ur talent is because God will mulitply it and use it (for this glory).' After hearin, I felt something stirrin within my soul and I thought 'Did I make the wrong choice of not going back to sing?' I felt so confused. Anyway, what is done, is done. I gave my word to her and so I must abide by it. But if what he says is correct, that God nv stops calling, then i... i..

(To Be Continued)

*Touch-me-not

Had PFT tis morning. I think that the school's arrangment was off cos we were the second batch of students that were planned to run but it was soo unfair because while the first batch had cool breezes,we had the 'sorching' sun beating down on us!

TJL was VERY nice today. She was encouraging me everytime I ran past her. Wellz, I needed it.

Today's the IJ Poetry Night and it starts 6.45pm. AA would be there filmin and sometimes I wonder if I am too bossy. I tend to be very bossy at times, unknowingly. I know that Andrea's the president and I am just the vice, but she can be sooo blur at times that I just do things without tellin her. Now i feel so bad cos I am always reprimanding and scolding her instead of the other way round'. *sighz. U know wat, i hope i can reach her thro her hse phone ( I tried twice earlier and if she wasn't in the toilet, she's sleepin. I've a feelin that she's totally avoiding me) and tell her that I am not going this evening, at all. So she can be in charge, like a president should.

Rosie

boooring

heya.
i am using e computer in school now. seriously, i am thinkin of ... of.. nothing. My morning has been slow and boring but i had nasi lemak from the market-hawker centre for breakfast with egg, otah-otah and hotdog. Yupz. Wahhaha. Was very filling. I am not supposed to eat anythin hard for 24hrs due to the filling. My gums feels so swollen now and i think its due to the injection the dentist used on me yesterday. OH. One more thing. If u dont want to stain ur teeth, than DONT DRINK tea or coffee. Cos the doc said that tea and coffee tends to be trap in btw little tiny gaps in ur teeth and they stain ur teeth too! Stupid, stupid, stupid. Now I cant drink my favourite blackcurrent tea with tons of sugar.. Argh. It really depressing becuse it's a simple enjoyment that i cant have. *Depressed.

Dental

This is the second attempt that i try to get online. The first was during recess but i went in pretty late, didnt have time. now i am rushing thro. gotta get out of the com lab soon.

Had my 1.2km run this morning durin PE. my timing was like shit, i tell ya. got about 9.03mintues. I was like -wtf? how am I gonna to like pass the 2.4km run with this sorta timing?

anyway, going over to the National Dental lata for dental. (duh, what else can u do there , right?) I am sooo scared. *trembling with fear* the docs gonna do some digging. he said that i have at leaset 5 rotten tooth. SHit rite? I hat emy self. really hate my body. Every fcuking inch!

Rosie

Heya. just got back home. Actually dental wasnt *that* bad after all. most of it was just in my mind. Thank God i requestd for a Female dentist. She's really nice. Have patience ...lots of patience. I was squirmin non stop at the sit and each time she would console me. Really nice. Think she should deserve some kind of 'good dentist of the year'. HahaZ. anyway, i had to take a jab to numb my molars to do the filling. The needle was so long.. so scary. BUt I didnt feel anything at all when she sticked it in my gums. *Thank God. Anyway, after that, my upper lips felt swollen and numb. It felt like i was punched in the face and it grew swollen after tt. Wahaha. The feelig was kinda funny, but nice. After that, i kept bitin on my lips to taste its numbness. Until now, i still cannot feel anything.. :)

Jaez

Racial Harmony

today was racial harmony day and i had soooo much fun. Borrowed Liana's baju and it was red in colour. and it matches my heels and specs! haha. but it a bit too long for me n since i wasnt used to wearing a baju, i had to walk slowly and hold the helm of my long dress-skirt (or wateva u call that piece of cloth.) actually, til now i still dont know what i was wearing in the mornin, all i know is tt it belongs to the malay culture. Heh. anyway, after school went to Hereen with chan, nessa, rach, liana, ling and sam. took neoprints (and for once, i actually look GOOD in it). i wanted to post it up here, but easyjournal.com doesnt have tis function i think. to tell ya a little more about wat sam and e gang wore.

sam was wearing two outfits. once from liana (a blue baju with lots of flowers) and another purple baju that she got from kunna,
amanda was wearing this black indian costume tt her tutor lent her (which she said that it was ugly, but it looked pretty on her)
sha sha was green indian sleeveless costume with beautiful sequines. but she changed out of it cos she complained tt it was too warm for her to bear
Chan had two outfits. blue saimuri outfit with e sch's blouse n this totally black longish matrix looking outfit. Yeapz. Personally, i prefer the second one. It gave her e mysterious look n i think tt black's her colour.
Liana borrowed her costume from some 4/6 girl. sorrie cant remember ya name. she was red (so was I) but her skirt was toooo long n she had to hold the side of her skirt so as to prevent fallin down. It was quite hilrious lar. U usually dont see her acting so girlish. :)

all in all, i enjoyed myself today

and before i sign off, i jsut wanna mention sth tt chan did this mornin. when i reachd school at abt 6.50 am, she saw me n gave mi tis HUGE, MEGAWATT smile (love smiles in e mornin, nv fails to brighten my day) n she told me to rise my palm and close my eyes. so i did and i was like thinkin 'what is this weird girl up to this time?' then she placed somethin in my palm n i closed my hand around it to feel sth circular. n to my suprise, it was a ring. it isnt excatly one that has gems or pretty little things pasted on it, but it was a very sweet gesture. Thnks Step! *hugz* now i wear her ring under my other ring on my thumb cos it's much too big to fit into my other fingers.

Lovez,
Jaez

Change

Its the saturdays again and tmr's the start of another week which means that I have only about 8 more weeks to Final Year Exams. Hmm. I guess I have been studying but probably not hard enough. Just last nite as I was lying on my bed waitin for sandman to claim me, I reflected a little on my last year self and then compared it to this year. I foundout that I changed a little - for the beter. At least nowadays I dont go for the hack-care attitude like last year (which unfortunately ended me up in this state) and I have picked up a little of confidence tht shattered when an incident happened last year. And I realised I am a little more patient now, though i still have to curb my temper.

Step Chan got Rachael hooked to Gackt too after she heard 'Vanilla' and yesterday during Arts Alive, she just couldnt stop jumpin around and singing to his song. But it was more of an annoyance than funny cos she barely knew the tune and lyrics so she was just singing rubbish. *Sighz. Also, had meetin with the small committee (there was only 4 students there and 1 teacher) and it went all sucky. I guess I left a very bad impression on Tan and Chai. Spoke and interrupted them too much. And the most insultin thing that Rachael said when we were walkin down the slope together was that "Ms Chai doesnt like you because she only likes people with style - like me." When I heard that all I could do was gape in shock. That's super insulting, at least to me. She could not have said it more lightly than that... Aaaahhh... Way to go, girl. *rolls eyes*

Finally finished IPW and it sucked - big time. The clip was sooo stupid (I am not commenting about Clarie's acting but about the script). Everythin was shot in two locations - the mosquito-infested ground and the back gate. We dont even have a storyboard, so the whole video was just impromtu. I look at our video and other people's video and compared, ours is a total piece of shit. If Jo Teo were to see it, she will probably just tell TanWK and I'll probably be stripped off my position in Arts Alive. Yupz, that is just so many probablys.

Jaez

Gamui

Time: 7.42pm
It has been a week since I last wrote. And since then, interesting things happened.

I got myself a husband & we are married for three days.
She's loving and *sweet*! (Not to mention... she's *very* huggable) Whaha, she's none other than Steffie Chan! She's really nice.. But I didnt think of that when I first met her last year. Thought tt she was totally dao (cos' she will always give u this cold stare whenever u look at her) but after knowing her this year, she's totally cool. So steffie darling, if u are readin this, thank U so much for everythin! X)

And I got a new idol! He is the cutest & the sexiest & the most handsome guy on Earth. (Though I suspect that he's gay) !!Gackt Gamui!! I got hooked to him when I saw his PV of 'Vanilla' when darlin was playin it in the school library (of all places) and I nearly swooned. And when she showed me his live version the next day during recess, my nose bled.... literally.

AAAAAHHHHHHHH,
Jaez

Time:8.55pm

OOoooohhhhmmmmmyyyyygggaawd. I feel like i am floatin, i feel high.. not cos I took any pills or drinks whatsever. I am high on GACKT GAMUI! *Bounces* *Screams out loud* *Punches fist in the air* Went through one of his fansites and guess what i saw? Pictures.... lots of heavenly pics of him. Him dancing, him singing, him hu**ing and him topless in his *snake tight leather pants that totally outlines his sexy body. His body rocks- big time! He looks skinny on the outside but when he goes topless.. WOW! like... *wwwwoooowww!!!! He has like a body that totally and absoultely oozes sex appeal - six pack and a chest. But I think that he should fatten up a bit. Too skinny... but beautiful body! I want his pictures! *aaaaaahhh Oooh man. U should watch his videos. Espcially 'vanilla'.. he is like .. going around doing his thang. And I dont think he's totally gay cos' i read from this website that he was once married and he has had this other 'gf' although he is linked up with more males than females. OOOooohhhh Gackt OOoooohhh *Swoons*

VP

Went over to view Leanna's journal just now and she wrote : "was dancing in the 'Discoteque'. It was really lame at the beginning but the spirit changed once the break dancers started showing their moves... I didn't know I could move and groove the way I did and will definitely do it again someday[someday... yeah right!] I was dancing with a great friend of mine...Jess[undergrowth...hehe...]. We were quite 'happening' as locals would say..."

Whahahaha .. watca mean by happenin? All we did was grind against each other! (..or something like that) But it was fun. Really fun. Leanna, if ya readin this, u can probably come down to my house to hangout one of these days.

Just came back from school not so long ago. Had CCA thats why so late. Anyway, i have just been promoted (offically) to VP. SHould i be happy or sad? Sigh. Does the promotion mean more responsiblities and worries that i will have to bore? I really dont know.

Today we had a bio practical test after school and the results will be recorded and sent to MOE. We had to cut potato strips (5.0cm by 1.0cm by 1.0cm) and then let it soak it into 3 different liquids. Namely distilled water, 2% salt solution and 15% salt solution. The potato that i took was pretty small so by the time i cut the second strip, i ran out of potatoes so i had to ask the teacher for another one. She didnt hear me so Ver (who was sitting beside me) gave me hers. She's so *sweet*. I didnt really bother to cut the strips according to the instructions. Didnt really bother so much. so i doubt my results are accurate. *:)*

Yesterday we had F&N and the week before, EWT said that we are going to do some experiment so she wanted us to bring our aprons and towels. Then on wednesday night, i forgotten to put the items into my bag and in the morning when I got out of the house, I knew that I've forgotten to bring sth .. but i just cant figure it out. So i made my way to school to realise that i have fogottern to bring my apron and towels. So i had two options to settle this problem.
1- Can go arnd begging for aprons and towels or
2- Go and get a new one from CO-OP

I chose the latter in the end cos' i couldnt borrow from anyone. Period.

Lovez,
Jaez

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Carnival

Last Sunday was our IJ carnival. And if i didnt remember wrongly, the last carnival they had in IJ was about 40 yrs ago and the sch didnt allow boys to enter, even into the school compound.
Geez, so it was one-of-a-hell event.

I woke up that morning early at abt 5 am, to take a quick bath and to go to school. Reached there at abt 6.30 am. At first, there were little ppl there so a few of us got ready. I didnt help at the stall but instead I was in the kitchen helpin with the curry puffs and all the blahz blahz blahz. Soon, majority of our class members came and they started to arrange the food and to re-heat the chicken or wateva they wanted to warm for the sales. I was hoppin from the kitchen to the stall and apparently, it didnt seem like i was around much. Wellz, I heard that *someone* has been complainin that some ppl havnt been doing much to help. Only that these ppl *pop* in for a little while to help and then just disappear. When I heard this comment, i was furious, seething. They may or may not be talkin abt me (cos' I am usually over sensitive to this sort of thing) but what i am concerned is that why do they have to act as if they did everything all by themeselves and that no one else worked as hard as them? Sorry to say, but no one was forcin u to stay to attend to the stall for the whole day. There are things called *SHIFTS* so if u are one of *these* ppl reading now, quit acting like the whole world owes you something. In fact, u r just being oh-so-selfish.

My mom came with her friend at abt 3 plus and i gave her all of my coupons (worth abt $30) and she spent it all. Kinda pity Liana darlin. She has like over 5 tickets left (worth abt $50) and didnt spent it. I see also feel kinda heartpain for her. I mean, these tickets are worthwhile for that day. After the carnival, it's just waste paper.

*Jaez

Bosai kittens

I just read sth online that is totally abhorrent. Read this : *Waste Removal. Left to its own devices, the kitten would quickly fill its vessel with its own urine and feces, leading to certain sickness and death, not to mention the inevitably unpleasant appearance and odor. The best solution is to seal the kitten's anus with Super Glue prior to insertion, and then insert a waste tube through a third hole in the vessel. As the kitten's body is still developing, a natural rectal diverticulum will soon form around the tube, which can be drained in any convenient fashion. It's just like a kitty colostomy bag!*

It's totally sick. How can one torture a poor, little kitten tt's barely 1 week old like this? It's totally inhumane and it's definitely not God's way. This must change.. somehow. I disagree, wholeheartly!

Sec Ones. Stupid Sec Ones.

Does anyone ACTUALLY come to visit tis journal? I doubt so cos' I havnt been gettin much messages. In case u r one of the blur kind and does nt hv a single clue to where u can do it,pls kindly *SCROLL DOWN* and u will see a link tt writes 'leave me a message'. Now click on the link and ... wellz.. leave me a message!

I turned on e tap just now when i was in e kitchen (was stealin some food - although i hv no idea how can one steal at her own house) and e water was like.. freezin cold! Thank God I took my bath earlier in e day, can u imagine if i were to take my bath now? Oh, i know. U would say, why dont u just bath in lukewarm water? Nahz, hot water makes ur skin winkle faster n tt will make u look old. *Grinz

Was runnin around e whole sch this mornin for about an hr or so, busying myself with the preparations for e upcomin carnival. And when Nisha and I went over to e 1/1's class to help them with e food stall decorations and to tell them to brin some stuffs like baking trays, aluminium foil and an egg glazing brush (cause they were not doing anythin to contribute *at all* ,so it's only fair tt they bring somethings) And e chair at tt class was *so damned rude*. When I spoke to them, it was as if i was like e most *boring E-maths teacher* in the whole entire world teachin them and they had to constantly *roll their eyes* to show their displeasure *in front of me*. And when u think tt was nothing, i began to write on their whiteboard when *SHE* was too lazy to do the job and after doin so, she literally *snatch e marker out of my grasp* and *shoved me out of the classroom*. Not only tt.She then proceeded to *slam e bloody door in my face.* It took *every ounce of patience and energy tt was left within me* not to curse and swear out a loud. I mean, I dont owe them *anything* so why must they give me this shitty attitude of theirs? Its not like I want to combine with them to work on e carnvival. It's e school's arrangment! U cant blame it on me! What a rough-hewn bunch of ppl. Really cant stand them. Just hope tt this sunday will be smooth-sailin and after that, everythin will be over.

Sighz. Got to go over to Shasha's hse tml at 9 am to fry papadums. Not exactly lookin forward to it cause there's hot oil invovled n I'm scared tt it'll get onto me or my shirt. Must remember to brin an extra set of clothes, just in case.

Incorrigible piece of dung,
Jaez

Norah Jones

I told ya i had PE yest. n i had my height and weight measured and i didnt grow any taller but i put on 0.5 kg during the past 3 weeks. U may think 'Ha! just 0.5kg. No Big Deal'. wellz, U'RE WRONG! 0.5kg a week, 5kg 10 weeks and then 50kg in 100 weeks! I am gonna grow like SOooo fat! Probably shld go on a diet and try to exercise. And if all else fails, i'll probably just stop eating all together.

I am kinda feelin uptight with the carnival. I am *sooo very afraid* that our food wont sell out! If u read my earlier entry, u would know tt there is another class tt copied our idea of sellin kebabs. And to make matters worst, their stall is just right beside us! So MW suggested tt we make our stalls more fanciful and i left tt to e secondary ones. Hope tt they will do a gd job. I dont know how they r goin to do it within a day but pray to God that everything, everything will turn out well. *Clasps hands and prays in earnest

Norah Jones rockz. I am practically hooked to her songs espically the song 'Come away with me'. Her voice is so sensual and her lyrics seems to wrap u warm. Take a look at her lyrics (and listen to her songs) then u will know wat i'm talkin abt.

Come Away With Me

Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song

Come away with me on a bus
Come away with me where they can't tempt us
With their lies

I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows
knee kigh
So won't you try to come

Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountain top
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you

And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me

Old habits that doesnt let go

School was as uninteresting like a school day should be. There was P.E in the mornin and TJL was runnin around doing her stuffs, rarely spending more then half-an-hr with the class. Not that i am complaining, kinda happy. Dont have to perspire at all. I hate perspiring early in the morning, i just hate e feelin of stickness all day long. Not to mention how much u will stink.

Everyone around school is busy with e carnival's preparation. I hv yet to make up with the equipment list when other classes will be bringin all their needed pots and pans to store them for the big day, here i am, still thinkin on what to ask them to bring. *Tsk. I dont make such a gd *leader* after all. We hv yet to decorate our stall and i just heard tt some other classes are doing kebabs too! That makes me kinda worried cos' we were plannin to sell 1000 sticks! And i am SSSOOOO afraid tt nothing will be sold and that we would hv so much left overs! Gawd. Got to think more positively, Got to think more positively, Got to think more positively. (As if repeatin this sentence a million, trillion times would help. NOT!)

Thought tt i was supposed to go to my hv my dental today but then i called the place and realised tt i got it all wrong. Foolish me. Rushed home for nothing.

I went back to watch u-know-wat today AGAIN! I swore to myself tt i would nv go back to my old habits and here i am, guiltily doing it and then regretting it for the rest of my entire life. I mean, whats with me? Have i got no will power at all to stop? Am i not stronger then the crave? Oh gawd. It's not a crave.. it must not be a crave. If its a crave... then ARGH! *Help* Shih Hanz, if u are reading this, u shld know wat im talkin abt. Damnation.
Must change my thinking.

*ps -Shih Hanz, I LOVE ur webbie. Cute pic of urself.

Lotz of love,
Jaez

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Last day of Holi

AAAHHH .... Tomorrow's the starting of school! That means I cant sleep in any longer! ... NNNOOOO!!!! I think tt 3 wks nt enuff, ya know? But to think of it, i didnt do much during these 3 wks so it's kinda gd tt i go back 2 sch. At least when i'm in school, i can look forward to sth - the moment the bell rings for the end of e day. Yupz. Kinda looking forward to sch, can see everyone again. But tt means i got hmk to do. Oh Hum.

Went to IKEA today to get a new table lamp. My old lamp has been humming rather loudly when i switchd it on. I guess its time 2 give it a rest (In the dustbin) and to replace it.. so I got this white lamp at less then $20 there.. and it's really worth it. Glad I went there today.

Oooh .. got to go. Dad wants to use e com.

Crapz,
Jaez

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Glorious Morning

I slept at 3 am yesterday and i was thinking it was ok cos' the next day is still a holi n tt means i can sleep in in the morning. But NNNNOOOOO .. I was awaken by some banging sound to realise that my neighbourhood is doing some construction work and all tt crashing, deafening, resounding, ringing, roaring, rowdy, thundering bangings prevented me from returnin to my dreamland. So, as irritated as I am,I got up to go to e bathrm. When I was walkin down e stairs (my bed's kinda like a double-decker, but it's single ... confused? Nvm.) my right leg skimmed against e sharp edge and it bleed. The pain was ex·cru·ci·at·ing.. wellz...i did say tt i SKIMMED but it kinda seemed really pain cos' i was still half asleep. Yupz. *THAT* was my sunny and glorious morning!

The time now is 1405 and that means that the mornin has long gone and that also means that I have wasted an entire mornin doing nth... again.
I hv a pile of hmk sitting at my desk n it's collecting dusk cos' i did not touch it since the holidays. I am just tooooo lazy. *Sigh

Signing off,
Jaez

June 25

I am fucking pissed right now. No. Make that MEGA FUCKING pissed. I swear tht my computer is totally gangin up with my printer to go against me. At first, i wanted to print sth out from Microsoft word N e machine didnt obey. E thing like went dead or sth it didnt even respond. it says 'printing' on e task bar but nothing happened. And
then my mouse (cursor) went crazy on me. It just got stucked in the middle of the screen (and it STILL is stucked). Oh. How did i write tis then? I am currently writin on notepad n i will transfer it to my easyjournal later. And speaking of easyjournal.. i wanna sue them.
Seriously. they're server is always busy and the 'edit journal' icon hardly works. i had to refresh the page a million times and I still didnt get it. But i shall not complain much. It's free. As the saying goes "beggers cant be choosers". But i am not exactly begging here, ya
know. Probably i should just change my blog and move to somewhere else.
But first, i got to convince someonne to teach me HTML. Been dying to learn HTML, but usually it's self-taught.

Yipee. I got into my CCa's committee. But i still dont know wat's my position. Not like I expect a high rank or anything. Heh. Just kindahappy I got in lar.
Was supposed to go to sch yest. to do some scriptin but i totaly forgotten abt it and overslept. And today there was filmin at Escape in the morning.
And again, i have forgottern clean abt it. Oh man, I am too younng to get senile! I think i must use my brains more often or it'll get rusty. Anyway, just called Andrea and she said tt e filmin didnt turn out quite well and i asked her why? E answer was typical - everyone was
dying to have fun rather than film. Then i think she kinda complimented me. She said,"Things might go more smoothly if u had been there." And being the curious me, i askd why. And her reason was cos' i tend to be the sort tt will stand firm n get things done. I was like... WoW.
I totally didnt expect tt. Thnks Andrea! ya made my day.

Completed a painting tht i bought fr some art shop a few years back. It's those kind tt u paint by the numbers tht are printed directly on the board itself and all u need to do is to mix e rite colours on a palate and paint. Sounds like it's pretty easy. But nopez. The lines are all curvy and e mixed paints nv really turn out e way (or the colour)
it is supposed to turn out. It's rather frustrating cos it's arcylic paint and it is often fry then wet. That means, if u make a mistake, u cant really correct it. I wanted to give up but cos my mom told me tt e whole paintin set cost more $20 and I sorta freaked. It's
rather expensive for a small piece of board and 10 thumbed-sized bottles of arcylic paint. SO i thought, what the helll, since i have been puttin off e completion of e paintin since years ago, i might as well finish it all up once and for all. So i did and i spent about 3 days
(and nights) paintin and i finally finished it this afternoon at abt 1.36 pm. It looked okie for someone who's dad is a pro painter and has a daughter tt totally suxed at paintin. Seriously, i cant paint. All i can do is eat, sleep and watch tv.

Aunt Jane, Uncle Sonny, Marcia, Aunt Gladys and u-knw-who came over to my house last evening. marcia wantd to surf the web n then i realised tt the modemn couldnt connect to the phone line. When i looked at e username and passwrd did i realise tt dad corked up e whole thing. He
used his hotmail acct's passwrd n username n thought tt the prolink's and hotmail's the same. Oh Gawd. Can someone pls educate him, thnk u. Anywy, marcia came into my rm and we had a great chat. The room was dimmed n it had an atmosphere of cosiness (dont know if I got e spellin
right but u get e pic) but the chat was cut short cos they had to go somemroe else. Oh man. It's not like we have much of a chance to chat always. She lives all the way in KL for pete's sake! And i always have liked Aunte Jane. She looks really cuddly and she always wears a smile or her face. She tends to also always look things on e bright side. SHe's really jovial.

my bone are gettin creaky these few days. That means tt i am lackin in exercise. Not that it really matters but it's rather embrassin to go out into the public and then after ur meal, u have to leave ur chair n ur bones creak really loudly. Yupz, it happend once, but it wasnt me. But u'll understand, it's embrassing.

Oh. Went to Mandarin hotel yesterday with mom. Had high tea at some resturant (cant remember e name) The food there is ok. Not exactly the best, but probably just passable for me. The theme for tht week was Indoesasia
and i didnt really want to enter but since mom insisted, i went with her. My dad didnt join us cos he had sth on. Oh wellz. He totally missed out on the ambience and e 'fun' we had. We chatted a little.. no. make tt A LOT. We sat there from about 1415 to 1645. Then we realised that our seats got to warm, we got off and left. Then we went
over to Taka and bought clothes. Saw this pair of blue pants on the shelf when we came down fr the elvator so my mom said to go and try it on. It was nice and very thing was okay until my mom realised that e zippper at e sides were a bit faulty. So there was tis tiny hole that showd my undies. Mom went to check with the sales lady to see if
there were anymore large and that was e last piece left. Seemed like it was a hot item. I grew disappointd and mom said to me, 'why dont u try XL? It may be really loose but i will be some sewing for you if u really like it.' So we bought tt pants and 2 other tops and my mom was sewing
up another buckle and velco just this afternoon. And now, my pants fit just so very nicely. Thnks Mom! Luv ya! (as if she ever reads this)

Welz, i am plannin to turn in now. My eyes are really dry and tht is a sure sign of sleepiness and after e holis, i will hv to go and check my degrees again, And i bet, the degree will score like really high cos' I hv been sittin in front of the com day in and day out. Sigh. No gd. So now
I got to eat more of vit A.

That above entry was typed yesterday. And for today's entry. Hmm .. I have nth much to write today. did nth much too. Just stayd home all day n slackd. Just had a very yummy dinner thnks for my mom. Both are out now. Have no idea when they went. But i dont think tt i will be expectin them back soon so I guess, i Will hv e whole house to myself and it's freakin e hell out of me cos at night, it's freaky dark and i am scared of the dark. Actually, i am scared of my own imagaination. i tend to imagine all the bad monsters and creepy thingys that crawl on ur body, suckin e life out of u. Yah, i think u get the pic.

Signing off,
Jaez

June 16

Wow. What a day I had Today.
Went to the dentist this morning, then i will have to go back for more check-ups. But I dont really mind. Cos' the doctor was kinda cute. Heh.
Then had a quick lunch, went to the East Coast Park to cycle with PARENTS! Sometimes some ppl think that it's weird to go out with parents. But i think it was really great cos' it not like ur parents are free all the time. So u shld take the effort to go out with them. I dont really like treating my beloved parents like strangers on the streets, if you know what i mean.

Anywayz, tmr i will be going to CNBC Asia Pacific for a visit with my CCA. U know. My CCA deals with video productions and i relly hope that the visit would be fun instead of boring walks around the site. It would be 3hrs 45 mins long and i hope to learn sth from there. Will write on it in tmr's journal if i can.

Gtg,
Jaez

Holis

Welcome to my lil's journal.
It's been quite a while since i Have last updated. That's because my life has been very draggy and monotonous for the past week. It has been the holis and I SHOULD be enjoying myself. Wellz, some how or rather, i realised that I have become more sluggish.

Did i tell you how much i suddenly have a liking towards tea? Espically Blackcurrent Tea? They are a must-haves for me and i drink at least 2 cups daily. Gosh. I have got a feeling I have got to return to the supermarket really soon and grab a *boombastic package of tea bags when my small supply runs out. I thnk tea is so much better then coffee. Coffee has caffine while Tea doesnt! Heh, and watsmore, i think its cheaper.

Let's see. Did anything interesting happen today? NOtihg much. BUt i Did go to school in the morning for my CCA. Oh. They wants us to enter into this video competition that is set for secondary and primary school students. We are supposed to gather into groups of threes and then they just plonk us with three words 'Learning Is Fun' and they expect us to thinkof doing a drama-mama thingy on it. i mean, what the heck? Learning Is Fun. That's not even a good theme to start off with! They should offer themes that are much more fascinating or exciting. Anywy, does anyone have any ideas or sugestions to offer on how to go about doing the 'Learning IS Fun'? Pls, do enlighten me!

Logging off,
Jaez

confirmation

Aaaaaaaaaahh!
I *Finally have boardband. It's totally kewl and everything. Now i can dl songs at a so-much faster rate and i am so freaking happy! I am kinda hopping around my house now and my mother is like hushing me down. She is so afraid that i would wake all the neighbours. Haha.

Hm. I am just about to go to sleep. But decided to update my journal before i turn in. It's been 2 days since i wrote anything. wellz, nothing much happeend today. In fact, i just went shopping with my parents. Oh. And if you are a regular shopper that frequents at OG, you will know of the 'free' gifts (pens) that they will issue out. Yupz, and when you get to the counters to redeem that pen, you realise that they will promote their useless stuffs like can opener and som pots and pans. Some aunties cannot resist those stuffs (And unfortunely, my mother is one of them). So you would buy those stuffs to find they dont have much of a value at home. (Why?) Cos' all they do is to take up space.
Ooh... my confirmation is in 9 (+/-) hours time. and I bought this really nice looking necklace in OG. It has stars ... two stars .. on it. Really nice and sparky. U really should see it. Will be getting up at 7am in the morning. To get ready and stuff. That means i got to go and sleep now or i might not wake in time.

Feel like turnin in rite now. Cant Take It AnyMore ..
Will be updating again soon .
Dont forget. It's UNLIMITED now. That means it's boundless...

Lovez,
Jaez

Post Exams...

06/06/2003
Mood: Fairly There

HellO to One and all that actually took the time to read this. Thanks a lot!

Being in school is extremely boring nowadays. You come to school in the morning and then it starts to be a drag. You sit at ur chair, lie your head down to sleep. And when you wake up, you only realise that 10 mins has just passed. You then just lie your head back to sleep. You long to go home. Yupz. That's school life for you when you finish your exams.

I just realise that we have about 3 wks of the June holidays. I am not exactly looking forward to the holidays. It will be long and I will spend my time sitting in front the tv and the com all day. Of course, i have thought of other alternatives to spend the holidays like learning something new. For example, take up a second lang. But after some thoughts, probably i should just stay at home and revise. Wellz. I will revise, if i can ever sit for a moment. I tend to get very restless when i have nothing to do.

Oooohhh.. i Have Boardband - Finally! *Claps
It is supposed to start today. But my dad has not fix the ADSL phone thingy. SO it looks like i wouldnt be dling the song 'Faith Of The Heart' and practice. *ho hum.

Love,
Jess

Last Day of MY

2 June 2003
Mood: Fairly good

Yeah!
Examintations are finally over. *Rejoice!ANd the best part, I dont have school tmr, which means that i can sleep in tmr morning. That's a gd thing too cos i have been really tired recently. I kinda slept through my MCQ questions just now. Did the MCQ groggily. BUt did go through it at least twice before handin in it. SO not too bad lar.
Oh!
If u are a dead hard fan for 5566 (and didnt manage to grab tickets for the concert when they were in Singapore) you *MUST* grab the lastest copy of Teenage. It has a article on them which is featured for 3 pages. Actually,it's mostly pictures from their concert. And haha .. it's really cute.. so must buy.
Sighz. I dont know what else to write now. Oh, one more thing before I go off. PLs ppl. PLs PLS PLs .. *PLS* leave your names when you drop me a msg. I have a few without names and I have no idea who's who. And thanks for visitin the journal that little o'l me has created!

Love,
Jessz